Sunday, December 21, 2008

¿Qué Pasa?...*

aveces me encuentro perdida pensando .. ¿que pasó?..

simplemente todo cambió

y me enoja..

pero aprendo que son cosas que tienen que pasar

que hay gente que estará y gente que no..

y la que estará será muy poca si no ninguna

pero es triste saberlo..

ya no los veo igual.. ya no los pienso igual

quizá aprendí a vivir sola, o sin nadie con quien realmente contar

y ya es Navidad, aparentemente este cambio de época acostumbra a traer buenos recuerdos que uno gustaría volver a vivir..

olvidar y seguir?..

o seguir punto...

crearé conciencia y no me creeré más nada

no pensaré que están ahí..

pensaré que están pero no para mí

yo sigo viviendo para mí y seré la única que lo hará

Sunday, October 26, 2008

i'll do it for love...*

for true love for true friends..
i'll do it
you know it...*

gotta have coffee...*

tenemos lo que nos merecemos..
tenemos lo que queremos
aunque lo que queramos no sea necesariamente lo que debamos tener
simplemente lo queremos
aunque no sea de nuestra conveniencia lo queremos
aunque destroce la vida
aunque destroce el amor
aunque destroce la amistad
aunque destroce lo mas sagrado
lo queremos
simplemente lo queremos.. pensamos que lo necesitamos para vivir
y pensamos que lo necesitamos para poder existir
pero no es así
pero aun así lo queremos y daríamos todo por que permanezca en nuestras vidas
aunque no sea necesario
por esa razón tenemos lo que nos merecemos
por estar obsesionados.

Saturday, October 11, 2008

Creo que encontré...*

aquello que pensé perdido..

y vuelvo a ser feliz

y vuelvo a sentir que lo tengo todo :)...

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

do you still...?...*

why did you stop existing..

sometimes i find myself thinking so much about the future that i return to the past..

i liked stuff about the past that i would love in my future..

i'm a hopeless romantic waiting for it to happen..

waiting for some magic..

in this world full of shit i'm still a romantic.. why?...

i miss those words.. the ones that made butterflies in my stomach in a good way of course..

i want to teach you the things you still don't know.. i want you to teach me the things i still don't know..

i want to meet the world with you..

i'm just a sucker for love...


Thursday, June 26, 2008


Siempre he pensado que hay gente que deja huellas mas profundas que otras en nuestras vidas..
hay unas que tan pronto pisan su huella se borra, hay otras que pisan y nunca se borra, hay otras que no queremos que se borren y terminan borrándose, hay otras que queremos que se borren y no lo hacen, hay las que borramos con todo el propósito y hay las que guardamos bien profundo en nuestro corazón. Cada una de estas huellas nos hace ser lo que somos y quienes somos, nos hace hacer lo que hacemos y nos hace vivir lo que vivimos.

Quiero huellas que quiera guardar siempre en lo más profundo de mi corazón.. no huellas que quiera borrar al instante...

Thursday, April 24, 2008

i just stopped...*

there gets a point in my life when every person in it abandon me, just stop having a relationship with me.. or i just stop existing to them.. people just tend to do that

it sucks so much because when it happens i don't expect it.. it just happens in a blink of an eye..

they just stop caring.. and it makes me feel like shit..

i feel like i care too much about them and they don't care a shit about me..

i don't feel like i have a best friend anymore.. i'm just by myself.. i have no one to go to.. except my mom but that doesn't count that comes all natural :).. and my boyfriend.. they are the only ones that are truly always there for me..

i do things for people even though i know .. i really know.. they would never do something equal or even close to what i could do for them..

when i am a friend i am 100% of a friend.. and i expect 100% from my friends too.. but i rarely receive it..

i just don't..

i just wonder sometimes .. did this really happened?.. did you just vanished?.. did i missed something?.. its not fair.. not even close to fair..

i miss who you were.. and you're not even the shadow of it..

it breaks my heart every day still caring.. still hoping for the best.. still believing in you

"all your friends seem like enemies when your broken down and empty"...

i'm broken down and empty...

i want a consistent friend.. someone who's my friend always.. not sometimes when they feel like it.. because i'm a friend always and i will always be...

i need a friend that cares like i care.. i need a friend that needs a friend.. i want a friend that wants a friend..

i thought i had that friend.. but i just stopped believing..

Sunday, April 13, 2008

no pertenezco...*

no pertenezco a este mundo..
me siento tan distante..
no logro entender muchos porque's
y no logro ense~arme a mi misma que no importa lo que haga
esas preocupaciones no van a dejar de existir
y que no importa lo que haga nada de lo que no entiendo va a cambiar
no pienso como todos.. ni entiendo cm todos piensan
no lo apoyo .. ni logro comprender eso
siento que todo lo que un dia fue dejó de ser
y me siento a esperar que todo lo que hoy es dejará de ser
y odio vivir así..
esperando lo malo.. no poder disfrutar el ahora sin pensar mas allá de eso
cuando por fin lo logro yo misma hago que se da~e..
y no logro aprender
y no logro dejar todo atrás..

pero ya me rendí
si no lo dejo yo atrás siempre va a estar ahí
siempre viviré esperando la desgracia..
y eso no es vivir..

cuando todo este bien lo aceptaré
cuando todo este mal entonces trabajaré con eso
pero mientras pueda me lo disfrutaré
como nunca lo he logrado hacer...

Saturday, April 12, 2008


es desesperante no poder hacer nada cuando quieres hacerlo..
sentirte de manos atadas..
sentir que no importa lo que hagas no puedes hacer ver
que no importa lo que hagas no puedes evitar nada..
quisieras que la gente viera como tu vez
quisieras que la gente sienta lo que tu sientes
pero no puedes..
es frustrante...

Saturday, February 23, 2008

i absolutely love...*

days like this.. =)
so much fun
laughter, friends.. well family :)

i love you all definitely and i'm so grateful to have you all in my live.. although sometimes you're all a little bit difficult :D.. i love you all :) so very very much..

"Cheers for our friendship"...

Sunday, January 27, 2008

i want to be one of those...*

Only those who will risk going too far can possibly find out how far one can go.
---T. S. Eliot

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

i'll sing it to a new melody...*

words escape from my mouth as fast as they arrive my mind
i can't control what i feel just because i said so..
so i will make myself think you mean nothing to me
but as much as i think it i keep thinking of you
so i guess there's nothing left for me to do
your empty words are a punishment for me
i guess this was never what we really wanted
but it all stopped like this
although every story needs an ending
this didn't end, it just stopped existing.

Monday, January 14, 2008


this is the best song that i could have heard today

Once More With Feeling - Get Cape. Wear Cape. Fly

Don't let the silence get you down
Though you've been sitting here for hours
Hoping a voice could soon be found
That speaks much louder than this music

For you're a little off colour and out for the count
Don't let that get you down

Don't let the talking keep you up
If they're your friends they'll share your vision
And as the phone rings break the silence they don't figure out that you
Don't want to answer

For you're a little off colour and tired of the sound
Don't let it get you down

Don't let the people make you think
That just because you're young you're useless
You know it's not naive to think that you can change the things around
And that no man is an island
For I'd rather be a pebble in an ocean vast and drown alone
Than make no sound

Wednesday, January 9, 2008


i'm a little frustrated with the world today :/..

so much going on in my mind
i don't want to worry about anything anymore :@...

i have so much plans for my future plans that are really important to me.. and in them i include every single person that means a LOT to me.. i try so hard not to forget about them when i'm planning because i want them to know they're important in my life and they're in my future too.. at least in my plans.. and i don't want to let them go because they're part of me now..

and i get so frustrated because i'm starting to notice that none of them have me in they're plans.. they're just planning their future without thinking of the people that care about them..
and i know it's not something bad because it's their future and they'll do wtvr they want with it
but why the hell do i care so much... it hurts.. and it's so difficult for me not to care about making them part of my life.. but i guess that's just me...

maybe this will make me learn that some people will not be there always...

i heard the other day in a song something that really made me wonder and nod as i heard..
"all good things must end... then again some things are far to good to go ahead and let go..."

so i guess that time will let me know what are those things...

Monday, January 7, 2008

Goodbye Vacations =(...*

tomorrow classes again =(.. boo..

anyway i finish the first week of February so there's more vacations coming soon !! yayy.. haha a near future i will accompany carla to San Juan Islands, The Galapagos Islands, and Ricon hahahaha.. we will see whales ok?.. we will =)
and she will accompany me to some places in Europe, Australia, Canada, to the Machu Pichu.. so we can visit it and i can take great photos there that'll make me famous ok?.. and we will visit Mauna Kea Observatories in Hawaii so we can learn about the stars =)

ok?... ok =D!!!!

Tuesday, January 1, 2008

For 2008...*

i don't want to do silly resolutions i will not follow.. i want to have a plan.. for this new year.. and for my life :)
this year i plan to start everything from scratch, lots of new and exciting things..
i plan to do everything in the moment and to not leave anything for later
i will meet new people
i will catch up with old friends
i will not let myself be bored .. just when i need to i will..
i will do my best at everything i do
i will not lose my time at stupid things that will not matter in my future
i will not lose my temper because people want me to lose it
i will keep my head up in every situation
i will try to save the planet =D
i will be a good person
i will travel
better... i will conquer the world =)